Seloso ver 2.1

Ok. So my story with Andy still hasn’t ended. I know. I still like him but I think it’s about time I move on. Being in a situation where all your emotional investments aren’t reciprocated is just crap. He’s still my friend but I think I’m getting irritated when I see him. Not because I’m bitter that he hasn’t given much attention to the time I’ve been giving him. It’s just that I hate the fact that he always has to pretend. Now, he’s pretending that he has a girlfriend. And no, I’m not saying this because I’m jealous. I’m saying this because I know he doesn’t have a girlfriend. All our other friends also believe that he doesn’t have one. Well, let me tell you why I think he’s just pretending to have a girlfriend.

These past few days, I’ve been laying eyes on one of the employees in our office. We had constant conversations before but that was because I had to give him feedback and stuff. All the conversations we had were very professional, were all about work. His name is Dave. He’s half Chinese, a bit Chinito and his skin tone is very light. Anyway, I like his smile, the way he dresses up and the way he converses with me whenever we have our feedback sessions. Then, last Sunday, my friend invited him to go out and have a drink with us. She did that for me. And so he came. I felt like I was 16 again. He was seated beside me, it gave me this kilig inside of me that I could never explain. Then we ordered 1… 2…. 3… 4… 5 bottles of beer each. That made us both so tipsy. Since Davao has a curfew on liquors by 2AM, we had to move to our friend’s house, that same girl who invited Dave. Then we drank some more and more and more. Yes, only the two of us were so dead drunk that night. I was even absent the next day. I was supposed to report to work by 6AM.

Dave and I seemed to have our own world when we arrived at McDonald’s to have breakfast. We kept talking and talking like we owned the place. We had our pictures taken candidly. He kept resting his head on my shoulders. I, on the other hand, kept moving closer to him. He wasn’t really acting sweet. I think he was just being a gentleman, a drunk gentleman that is. Then we parted ways.

That's me in blue, that's Dave in gray. And yes, he was so drunk he had to doze off

The day after, Dave and I barely spoke. We don’t even say Hi to each other, like that “Beer Night” never happened. I understood. I was a bit shy to approach him either after what we both did out of drunkenness. I tried reaching out though and fortunately, he smiled back. I’m trying to build that friendship between us. I have this big hunch that he’s straight, but the hell I care. I mean, really, I just want to be close friends with him. If God won’t allow me to be with him, then fine, I just want to be friends with him.

In the office, I call him BabyLove. We all love giving codenames to our crushes, right? Well, since Andy heard the term BabyLove, he started being silent and cold towards me. Then he kept asking who BabyLove is. When I ask him why he needs to know, he doesn’t answer. When he checked my iPod out and saw the pictures I had with Dave, he then said “confirmed nga. Sabi ko nga ito si BabyLove.”. He just won’t let it go. After that, he started claiming he has girlfriend. Now I guess you can tell why I still don’t believe he doesn’t have a girlfriend. Hay josko. Mahaba ba talaga buhok ko teh?

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