Seloso ver 2.0

ang pangit pala ng feeling noh kapag nagseselos ka sa taong di naman sayo. Andy's been quite close to this girl since they became teammates. They asked him kung crush niya ba daw si girl, he says "no". I'm not sure if I should believe that or not. He barely goes with me for lunch anymore. I'm still convinced that he likes the girl. She has a boyfriend though, but I can feel she likes the attention Andy gives her.

The other day, my friends and I pre-planned a post-birthday celebration for him. It was just supposed to be the five of us kasi kami yung barkada sa office eh. Before we went out, he stopped me and asked...

"Bert, ok lang ba kung isama natin si (girl's name)?"

Ako naman si plastic... "kayo bahala" then I stormed out of my room.

I think he knows that I'm jealous about her. I think he feels the cold shoulder I give him everytime I see them together. I mean, among the 5 of us, ako lang ang tinanong niya. He even used my phone to call the girl. The girl said she'd join us, she even texted Andy through my phone. The devil in me took over; I deleted the message without telling him about it. Eventually, she didn't go. Napansin ko naging matamlay si Andy just because she wasn't able to make it. He even tried to call her to come. This time, he used our friend's phone. Feel ko nga baka alam niyang nagseselos ako kasi di na siya nakitawag sakin.

Close lang ba talaga sila? Or talagang may gusto lang siya dun sa babae? I'm confused. I guess it's because of the false hopes my friends give me. They keep saying he's not straight for so many reasons that involve me. I don't give a damn anyway. I don't particularly care about his sexual preference. I think I'm more worried about the attention he gives the girl, the attention that I used to get. I don't know what to feel, how to feel. I mean, I'm fine when we're together but I feel odd, very odd when I see them.

Josko po, tulungan mo sana ako :((

xoxo
Much Love