Black Jacket

No, it's not a new jacket he lent me. I let him borrow my favorite black jacket this time and I'll tell you why.

Yep, today is balentayms day. Nothing special for me as I don't have a date of my own. Well, I can't call Andy my date. He never asked me out yet in first place. As usual, he woke up first. I even remember accidentally kicking him in the back unconsciously while I was stretching as he was sitting by the end of my bed to surf the net again. After that, I slept back since I realized it was too early. We spent the whole day just inside my room. I even served lunch for him still inside my room. We were like outcasts, prisoners. It was funny but I just didn't want him to roam around the house that much. After a few hours, I turned the TV back on. We saw trailers of movies shown in Davao cinemas right now. Then "The Mechanic" flashed. "Nood tayo!" he said. "Now na?" I asked. We went into a debate. He started off saying he wanted to watch it right now then he changed his mind when he finally convinced me to watch it today. Ugh!

Since I still had his blue jacket, I figured it should be cold inside the cinemas so I lent him my black jacket. When we got to the mall, he started complaining why there were lots of hearts around the place. "Natural! Valentines kaya ngayon?" I told him. Then he suddenly said he was supposed to have a date today but "the date" has a shift at some hospital. I felt a bit awkward then I suddenly realized I was walking too fast just to get away from him. I mean, it was my fault in the first place why I had to ask him more. But I was kinda wondering... he never mentioned any cues just for me to say he was telling the truth. There was no word there that personified "the date" as a girl. Nah, silly me, I'm just bitter.

The movie was great, seriously. I loved it, he loved it too. While he started being mum about the V-day thingy, I started noticing all the girls holding either a long stem or a bouquet of flowers. "Dapat may ganun din ako" I implicitly told him. Too bad he was too caught up with the music he was listening so I just looked at him. He then asked "ha?", I just laughed like I always he do when he plays deaf. Valentines day isn't something I "celebrate", not something I take too seriously. I mean, you could have a date with anybody else at any day of the year. I don't want to have a date with some special guy along with other couples having a date as well. I hope someday, someday, someday... I'm gonna have that date of my own. Oo na, I hope it's Andy... it's some way or another... whatever...

xoxo
Much Love