Silence

I know deep inside I ain't done anything wrong that very night we met finally met. I mean, after 3 years of anonymous friendship, online chatting and SMS messaging, I never thought everything would end at that very moment we finally saw each other in the flesh.

For 2 weeks or so, I've been in my happiest moments. Though I haven't seen those naked eyes yet, I was simply enjoying the company I had with you through my mobile phone. Almost every minute of my everyday was dedicated to making sure my smile doesn't wear out just because of you. But now, everything wore out, tore down, broke up. I wasn't in love yet, no. But to be honest, I was getting there.

I didn't know what happened but you just left me hanging. I don't deserve this, I really don't. I can't even understand how come after the night we met, you then changed your FB status to in a relationship and was posting about being in love again. I can't blame you if you suddenly fell for somebody else while we were having some temporary virtual relationship or whatever that was. I respect any of your decisions but I just can't seem to fuckin' understand how come I didn't get any word, breath, sigh or even just a simple goodbye just to tell me I'm just not enough.

Until now I hold my phone close to me hoping that someday, some time, you'd find the heart to let me know what happened. But for now, I'll try to get by. I was just too attached to what we had. I don't even know what we had was called, all I know was that we had something. If ever you read this (which I strongly believe you can't), please, let me know.

:(

xoxo
Much Love