Regrets and Realizations

"Musta na? It's been awhile..." He texted.

He never used to send me messages just to check up on me when I was still courting him. He was never the type who'd like to show he missed me or something. He was always the insensitive type.

"Eto, medyo haggard na sa trabaho... senxa if I can't accomodate your message, just a little busy tonight" was my quick reply. So I got back to work, had to face this crazy Monday in the office. I was uber busy last night that I came in healthy, but when I came out I was already sick. I now have coughs and colds and am not feeling well.

As promised, I texted Carlo when I got out of the office. It was almost noon since I had a LOT to do before I had to leave work.

"Hoist, kumusta? Kakalabas ko lang ng office. Sobrang haggard ko na. huhu" I wasn't expecting him to reply. I always knew he was the one who easily feels bad whenever you don't reply to him right away. But then my phone beeped after 10 mins.

"Hindi ka pa nasanay! Ok lang yan. Eto, papunta pang work".

I was inside a cab already going home as we were busy exchanging messages. We were talking about a lot of stuff. Then I told him why not come back here and work in Davao since he's really homesick and has been expressing his disinterest in his work already.

"Why, you miss me?" I just smiled when I read his message. He was never like this when we were going out. Like I said, he was never the one to express his feelings. After reading that message, I just though maybe he wanted to catch me saying I miss him. Yes, I do, I won't deny it. But it just ain't the same way I used to miss him.

"Assuming? haha!! Pero di nga, bakit naman hindi?"

After a few seconds, he responded "I miss you more". I finally told myself that maybe, just maybe, he regrets letting me just pass by. I asked him what made him miss me, he didn't reply anymore.

After a few moments, I made some thinking what if he indeed came back and asked to have a second chance at us being together. I told myself I wouldn't close my doors. It's just that I have somebody in my mind right now. Somebody perhaps I'm beginning to have serious feelings for. So I turned on the "Emowt" playlist in my iPod. I tried to see who comes to my mind first when I hear the songs I really loved to listen to when I'm thinking seriously.

After playing a few songs... it was just him that was boggling my mind.

xoxo

Much Love