"I Love You, Goodbye"

(to read the first part, click here)

I actually disconnected it 'coz I didn't want to answer your questions. Perhaps I was wrong. Perhaps I was the one being selfish.

After a few hours, you called again.

I didn't know what to do. I know you'd want to talk about where we left off when I dropped the call. I know you'd want to talk about letting go again. So I decided not to answer. I just pretended as if you were calling somebody who was asleep already. After 5 missed calls, you gave up, so did my phone. I had to plug it so I'd be able to receive messages from other people. Then my phone beeped.

"Tulog ka na ba?"

He just got a cold silence as I decided still not to reply. After that message, he stopped bugging me that day.

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I want to let go because somebody like you is really too hard to resist. You are indeed close to perfection. In some way or another, I am also helping you let go. It might not be the best means to do so but I believe this is for our own good.

It has already been a week since you left. It has been days since you contacted me. Hopefully you're already starting to adjust to the new life you'll be living for 2 years. Yes, I wouldn't deny it. I miss your calls, I miss your messages, I miss your hugs. To cut it short, I miss you and everything that comes along with it.

"I love you, goodbye" was the last thing I received from him today. It may be some cheap line ripped off from a song but I know, I definitely know... it came from his heart.

xoxo

Much Love