David's First

I was out with my friends for a drink. They dragged me into this bar with crazy lights and uber loud music which wasn't really my thing. "Tagay kung tagay" was my principle. I wasn't into clubbing anymore and I barely accept invitations to party at clubs. I just didn't like the idea of partying with friends at clubs because you can barely start a conversation since the music's between all of you. Anyway, going back, I still wasn't in the mood to dance. "Tara" was what my girl friend said inviting me to the dance floor. I just waved my hands as if to say no, I'm fine here. I could barely see the people inside the club because I'm somehow night blind. So I just sat there while sipping the bottle of beer they handed to me, afraid I might accidentally bump somebody because of my sort of blindness.

Then I noticed at the other corner was David. He's one of those guys I like the most in the workplace because he's so good-looking. He's not macho or something, he was a bit chubby to be exact. Yet there's still something in him that attracts me so. Perhaps it's the beard... maybe not. He was facing my direction while sipping his drink from his glass but I wasn't really sure if he was looking at me or not since I didn't have with me my glasses. Since my beer was done, I approached the bar to ask for one more when suddenly, somebody bumps me from my right.

"Sorry" the man said. I barely looked because I really didn't care.

"Hindi ko sinasadya" he added. I wasn't quite sure why he tried to stir me into a conversation. So I faced him and said No prob... I stuttered. It was David looking at me with a soft smile. That's fine I added.

"I'm David" he said while reaching out his hand

Robert. You're from (name of workplace) too, right? I asked while reaching his hand too. It was soft and it seemed like I didn't want to let go.

"Yah, you seem a bit familiar too."

Okay. I'll go ahead na. Kelangan ko pang bantayan yung gamit ng friends ko. He tapped my shoulder before I took a step away.

"Wait, sabayan na kita"

I wondered why but he accompanied me to my seat. I was alone that time since all of my friends were busy jiggling their bodies to the gyrating music. I just let him follow me and I really didn't have anything in mind. Perhaps he likes one of my girl friends reason for him to follow me. Maybe he's just getting his way to one of my friends through me. I don't know.

Okay nako dito. Baka hinahanap ka na ng friends mo I said. But honestly, deep inside kinikilig ako even though I know I wasn't his target.

"I hope you don't mind me staying. Andun pa naman friends mo diba?" he insisted. So I tried being straight-forward.

Are you eyeing one of my friends? Kasi pede kitang ilakad. He just responded with a smile, that kind of smile that meant I was wrong.

"No. Actually... uhmmm... kasi... I was hoping to know you better." I almost fell off my seat. I didn't really expect him to say that. I tried to pretend.

Panu friends mo? Alam ba nila?

"Just two of them there" while pointing to his two best friends (one girl, one boy). "yung iba, walang alam. Di nga nila alam na andito ako kasama mo so I hope you don't mind."

I didn't really expect him to be my date-slash-companion that night. Napaihi nga ako ng isang tulo sa sobrang kilig eh. I didn't even expect him to have this thing for boys *grins*. We talked a lot that night while my friends kinda forgot their stuff were with me since there were too busy strutting their stuff. David even convinced me to leave the place alone with him even thought I haven't really known him that much. He brought his car with him which kinda made me think "is he going to do what I think he is going to do?". So I stepped inside and sat on the passenger's seat as he opened the door for me even though I wasn't really sure what he had in mind.

San tayo pupunta? I asked. "Mcdo. Let's hangout kung ok lang sayo." I was relieved when he said he just wanted to know me more. Kala ko tuloy hahalayin niya nako. He shared to me a lot of stuff about him; that I wasn't just a familiar face to him. He knew me way back already when our offices were still beside each other (I already moved to a new building after promotion). He's alsoadmitted he's still closeted so I guess it might've been a bit of a challenge for him to approach me with his friends around. To be honest, I was the first guy he approached ever in his life. He was still on the "curious" stage I believe so he wanted to try how it felt going out with the same sex. From then on, we started communicating frequently. We also started going out for lunch, dinner, movies and other stuff. We haven't talked about sex yet because he was still new in the scene and he never had any sexual contact with a guy yet.We had no commitments yet, just plain fun. Although there came a time he admitted to me he liked me and that he was starting to fall. Ako naman, ginoong pakipot. I just told him I like him too but I didn't let him know how I much I was starting to love him as well. David was already close to perfection, somewhat close to that ideal guy I'm looking for: malambing, smart and that bad-boy aura. We haven't talked about being together but I guess it has a purpose.

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*buzz*

My phone beeped as David sent me a message. "Kita tau.I hav sumting to tel u". Crazy thoughts started to crowd my mind. Is he going to finally ask me? Maybe not. I'm not fond and used to being courted because I'm more used to being the one who courts. David's actually the only guy to make me feel like a princess, since it used to be my job. So I met him up at the place he told me to go to. When I reached the place, he was already there with food served on the table. He basically knew already what I wanted.

So, ano yung sasabihin mo? I said while portraying a poker face. I didn't want to look very assuming.

"I got accepted na for Dubai!" he said with a big smile. He acted as if he wanted to hug me so tight that time yet there was quite a number of people around. I was stunned and was caught off guard. Perhaps that was the reason why we, I mean, he never talked about commitments with me. I stayed silent and I wanted him to notice that I was confused.

"Well, I know nabigla ka and I'm sorry if I didn't tell you about my plans." I didn't complain. I didn't have the right to.

Wala man sa itsura ko pero I'm happy. I know you have plans. I just didn't know I wasn't part of them. There was a pinch of bitterness from what I said. I just couldn't help but let him know.

The conversation went on. I didn't complain anymore because I know he had plans for himself. He told me he wanted to discover himself some more so I let him. Right now, he's busy processing all his requirements because he's still waiting for a call from his future employer about the details of his flight. While waiting, we still continue to go out. He even planned to book a room at a hotel to be with me before he leaves (I already know what he's thinking!! Nyahaha!!). Maybe ideal guys really don't exist to be mine. They just exist to live, that's all.

xoxo

Much Love