Robert @ MGG

I feel so honored to be in Migs' website. Since I was too desperate to talk to somebody about my dilemma with Geo, I took a shot in sending Migs a mail. Your Robert, as strong as he may seem to be, would sometimes find weakness in him as well. I was just hoping for a personal reply through my email though because I didn't see any recent posts that was published to his website in the past few days. But when I checked his website, I noticed a very familiar story. Yes, your Manila Gay Guy indeed posted my mail in his website.

I really appreciate those people who took time in reading my story, to those people who've related themselves with my story, and to those who are insisting that Geo is closeted (definitely NOT). Moreover, I would like to Migs, of course, for sharing my story to the PLU community, knowing that there might be other guys out there who'd want to share a piece of their penny as well.

A million thanks to Migs for this touching advise/reply:

"Dear Robert,

What a timely letter you sent me. Thank you. I feel that a lot of our experiences are both common (shared and similar) and unique (not exactly the same as anything else). I can identify with you, yet I know your situation is also very unique because of the people involved. So let me share my thoughts freely, and I’ll let you pick what you feel is useful, and leave others that are not behind.

Seems to me that your dilemma is about getting clarity about your relationship with Geo. Kasi naman, ang sarap ng feeling being with him di ba? Nakakakilig lalo na yang mga jokes (half or three-quarters meant) na parang may laman, mga bonding times together, etc. I can feel from the way you wrote your letter that you enjoy this thing that you have with Geo. Savor it, Robert. I say live with the present, savor every emotion, every breath, every moment you are with him; make the most of each meeting, each drinking session, enjoy the friendship as if it will end the next moment. Ngunit imbis na panggigilan mo, subukan mong maging mas payapa. Dahil sa pagiging mas payapa mas malalasap mo ang tamis ng inyong pagiging magkasama. Darating ang panahon na hindi mo na makakayanan ang bugso ng iyong damdamin, at kailangan mo ng magdesisyon — magbubukas ka ba ng iyong kalooban kay Geo tungkol sa tunay na nararamdaman mo o hindi. When that time comes, if you’ve truly been paying attention to the wonderful “stituationship” you’ve so far enjoyed with Geo, you will never go wrong. Be open to him, and feel what he truly wants for himself as well. But also, be open to yourself. Honor your feelings, they are telling you something. However your story goes, proceeds, or ends, I wish you feel gratitude for what the universe has offered you. Such a beautiful friendship. Whether you open up or not, whether you get rejected or bring the relationship to a higher level, know that you’ve received much. Be well."

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xoxo
Much Love