Moving Out Soon...

I have already started packing my stuff. I'm just waiting for my friend to bring me back my bag so I could finish packing all of my clothes. I will be leaving for good. It's a sad move but I know this would make me happier.

After 22 years of living an unhappy and uncomfortable life with my family, I came to a decision to leave home. I don't even know how I can even call it home when in fact the so called love never existed in this makeshift shelter. I don't have any issues with my siblings, neither do they have issues with me as well. My mom's abroad, but she is well informed about me moving out. My dad, somebody I resent the most, is the main reason for my decision to leave. I just couldn't take it anymore. I just can't bare seeing my sister getting all those tantrums and loud rants from my immature father just because of me.

I don't know why he hates me. Definitely not because of my sexuality because he doesn't have an effin' idea about it. Every time his temper rises, I just don't see the exact point of the argument he is initiating. I, on the other hand, definitely have a reason to hate him. 95% of my friends would always tell me "tatay mo parin yan Bert". However, for the remaining 5% who knows me very well, including those who knows about my family background, I just got two reactions:

"Masmabuti pa nga na umalis ka na sa inyo Bert..."
"Congrats bai! At last, free ka na sa tatay mo!"

Yes, they were happy to know I'd be away from someone who never loved me. This will be the last blog entry I will be making here in this house. I will be moving to a new place with my friends where I'm sure I'll be comfortable. It might not be as easy as living in your own house, but I have to start all over in order for me to be happy again. I will now go back to my room and decide which stuff I have to bring first. I have to continue packing so I can go back to sleep and just wake up excited about moving out. I will now arrange the computer as well so it would be ready for it's departure with me.

To my dad who's such an A-Hole, so long sucker. You'd be fine without me, pretty sure.

xoxo
Much Love